Three days to Aiken.

All trips are a journey.  Most times you are going from point A to point B and rarely take time to see what's in the middle.  Well, our trip to Aiken ended up being a journey, and its not done yet.  As I pulled out of the farm on a crisp (read 2 degree) Sunday morning I recall saying to our farm manager Jami, "You know, there is something about this year that is making me feel like I shouldn't be going..." It was strange. I was the most organized, planned out, packed up that I have ever been, and yet, something was holding me back from being excited and "ready" to go.  If only I could have known what was ahead.

The drive was beautiful and sunny, and the mountains through West Virginia gleamed with snow, sparkling in the sunlight.  I saw two rainbows at different times and thought, "huh...its not even raining! How strange!".  I called and told my Mom how weird it was to see the rainbows circling the sun, and even managed to snap a picture of one.  About an hour later, those rainbows would be far from my mind.  As I began ascending the hill into Beckley WV, my truck suddenly started decreasing in power. The cruise control shut off, the tacometer went crazy, and I was now limping up the hill at 30 mph praying to God that I would make it to the top.  By the grace of God I got to the top where my truck completely lost power and shut off.  I COASTED the entire rig into the Beckley service plaza and came to rest directly in front of the gas station.  I think I must have had an angel on each corner of the rig flapping their wings to get me in there!   The ordeal I went through to finally get the rig towed to a garage would take another blog post, so I will leave it at the fact that five hours later, everything was safe and secure, and Rose and I were at a hotel. 

Sadly, the garage I was towed to was a bit back yardish, and after wasting a better part of the next day, I finally found a Ford dealer about 20 miles away and had it towed there.  They were able to look at it, but couldn't get it fixed in time, so Rose and I spent another night in Beckley.  Now it was Tuesday, and Ramey Ford in Beckley had figured out the the oil pump had broken, and had our truck ready to roll by 3pm.  I hooked up and started out of Beckley, finally.

 Unfortunately, Beckley wasn't ready to say goodbye to us.  Fifteen miles into the trip, the truck was struggling again, and I turned around and limped back to Beckley, saying my Hail Mary's the whole time.  We made it to the dealership by 6, got a rental car this time, and went back to the hotel, where the staff watched me walk in slack jawed with disbelief.  They must have felt really bad for me because they gave me a huge suite with a wet bar and sitting room this time!  Rose and I licked our wounds, ordered a pizza, and bedded down for the night.

So, now its Wednesday, and I have been in Beckley WV since Sunday afternoon.  Our wonderful shipper Marvin from Ridgewood Transportation was on a time schedule, so the horses had to leave today or wait until next Tuesday.  I decided last night to ship the horses and have them leave at noon, to give us a chance to get the truck rolling.  At 10 am, when they were still deconstructing the truck I came to the conclusion that I needed to call in the cavalry.  A friend of mine, Amy Hoffield, had offered to help out should I need anything, so I called her up and she is presently on her way with her truck to pick up me, Rose, and the horse trailer, putting us about an hour or two ahead of the horses.  I cannot even begin to think of how I can repay or thank her, but suffice to say she is a SAINT for coming to my rescue. 

Rose and I are patiently waiting, and optimistic that we and the horses are going to get to Aiken today, and we will just take it one day at a time.  I keep looking for the reason why God choose to plunk me down on my butt here in Beckley, and I am keeping an open heart so that I can do whatever it is I am supposed to do here.  Hopefully, my work will be done by the time Amy gets here, and we can continue our journey.  While it wasn't my plan to stop here, it was somebody's and all I can do is take it all in and keep going.  Maybe, I'm supposed to remember that its not about point A to point B, but instead the inbetween part of getting there.

T Minus 17 hrs!

Well, we are one day from departure for Aiken, and I sure am glad that we waited until Sunday and Monday to leave!  The northeast and down into the mid south has been covered in a blanket of cold and snow, and I for one can't wait to get to SC and be able to actually get some riding done.  This cold spell has allowed me to get really organized before my hiatus from home, and by the time night falls tonight, I think I will be leaving my boys fairly well prepared.  I think the hardest part of the trip is not being with Jake and Ivor...it struck me last night as I tucked in Jake that I would miss out on that goodnight snuggle for the next four weeks.  What a great family I have to make it possible for me to do this!

Speaking of boys being ready, Captain has been steadily improving, and Dr. Miller came out and did a final acupuncture session with him so that he would be ready to travel.  I am hopeful that I will be able to start jumping him again when we arrive in Aiken.  I would be lying if I said I wasn't worried about how the stress of travel will affect his condition, but our shipper Ridgewood Horse Transportation is making every effort to ease his stress level by giving him his own personal box stall!  The other dressage boys Tsjesse and Goodman are ready to rock and I am excited to be bringing Angela Hambricks other two horses Lidcombe and York with us as well.  York will be hanging out with Angela in Brays Island SC and hopefully joining us for some intermittent training in Aiken as time permits.  We already have a few lessons scheduled with Silva before she leaves for Wellington, and I am hoping that she has a few cancellations so she can put me in for a few more.  I will also be working with Charlotte on Tsjesse and Goodman, trying to up their game and prepare Goodman for the PSG and Marian Shaughnessy's Tsjesse for the I2, something I'm really looking forward to.

 I am also thrilled to have the opportunity to give Lidcombe some professional training for a full 30 days and see where he would like to take his career.  Angela purchased Lidcombe from Janet Mudge through Boyd and Silva Martin a few years ago as a dressage prospect, and he has been slightly plagued with injury after injury since then.  We finally have him very sound and in great condition and while he has already told us he doesn't LOVE the flat work, I am interested to see if he would like to get back to eventing or perhaps do a little jumpers.  I can't thank Angela enough for entrusting me with the sole training of this horse for the full 30 days, and I am excited to see the results.

I would also like to take the opportunity to welcome Kyle Smith to our team this year.  He will be travelling with his horse Jack, and helping me keep all our ponies clean, beautifully turned out, and ready for exciting adventures.  I am delighted to have such a knowledgeable and hard working individual as part of the staff this year, and look forward to a fun month.

Lastly, I couldn't go without the support of  our farm manager Jami, and the other trainers at White North Liz and Mandy.  Mandy will be making sure that our dressage ladies are ready to rock and roll for the Lake Erie Dressage show in March, as well as teaching all my lessons on Wed and Sundays.  I'm excited for her to have the opportunity to do a bit more, and I know Liz will keep all our jump riders and horses tuned up and ready to go for the March schooling show. 

The next time you hear from me will be from beautiful Sandy Hills Farm in Aiken, SC. Until then I'm looking forward and kicking on to tomorrow's gifts.

An exercise in patience.

Recently, I have had the feeling that I am continually being taught patience and tolerance.  Just when I thought that I had really mastered this skill, (and yes, I am proud of it) I was given yet ANOTHER exercise in patience.  This is what happens when you get cocky.

As Aiken drew near, I was very excited to have my long time partner "Z" back to fighting form.  He had been jumping great, flatting great, and having fun teaching his "leasers" Ellen and Katherine the finer points of riding.  I decided to show him for sale before leaving to some people coming in from out of town on the off chance they might like him.  When he came in from the pasture, he had a kick on his leg that was swollen and definitely sore.  I showed him and he looked a bit off, so we gave him a bute and a few days rest, and he seemed to be a little better.  On Sunday, he looked a bit off again, so I thought it would be smart to pop an xray just to be sure that he was ok, and as luck would have it, he has a small stress fracture in his cannon bone.  Now, I know there are alot worse things, and he will be fine after 6 weeks of stall rest, but all I could say was "REALLY???"  Here is this horse that I couldn't wait to campaign down south and FINALLY run a preliminary at Sporting Days, and now he is not even making the trip.  My Mom says that means "someone is being protected", and I say its causing my hair to fall out, and that OBVIOUSLY this horse is never going to get sold.  The last time I thought about selling him he colicked for three days and had to have IV fluids.  So, "Z" stays home for the first time EVER.

Captain on the other hand, is going to make the trip south, and his condition has been interesting.  After an initial improvement, we had a tough setback last week, where his symptoms were so significant that I couldn't even ride him.  Dr. Miller came out and we did more acupuncture as well as some work on his facial nerves.  He showed immediate relief, and for the first time in months I have been able to do several training rides in a row!  This has been a huge ray of light in our journey!  Today I was able to work on suppleness and rode him for a half an hour with very little itching, nose blowing, and almost no head tossing. Its been so long since this horse felt like himself that it feels like a miracle.  We are also partnering with Dr. Mary Brennan D.V.M, a well known holistic vet, who sent us some new therapy that we started today.  It is my hope that this is a real light at the end of the tunnel, and that we are getting somewhere.

I am committed to not getting ahead of myself, and not excited at all about Captain's progress. Its not for lack of gratefulness, or optimism.  I refuse to have any emotion at all about it because I wouldn't want God to say, "hmpf... guess I need to send her another exercise in patience" and force an instant relapse.   Instead, I am being patient, and taking one day at a time. I think I am going to have the patience of Job by the time this is all said and done!

Looking forward.

Happy New Year! As promised, I present the 2012 recap!

  In our sport coaches are constantly telling us to "go forward", and "look up!" to improve various things with our position and horses. Whether its jumping, dressage, or just plain trail riding if you are looking down and "behind the leg" progress is very slow and often unbalanced.  Such is it with life.  Taking a glimpse back at 2012 is for me, in part, to thank all the amazing people who have done things I have only dreamt of, and secondly, to count the many blessing in my life this past year.  So forgive my overuse of the words, amazing, outstanding, awesome, wonderful...my Thesaurus is worn out!

In January I was fortunate to have an unlikely surprise as I prepared to leave for Aiken.  After looking for a long time to purchase a new truck, I found a used F350 (or rather it found me as I had gone to look at a different vehicle, and the sales lady at Junction  Auto Ann Cotrill~she is awesome go see her~ mentioned she had a truck that would be perfect) in like new condition with only 62k miles on it!  Excited beyond belief I traded in the Mitsubishi and drove off in the too big for the garage, to wide in the driveway, dually pickup!  I raced to find a suitable trailer, but couldn't quite get it all tied up before I left.

Aiken was a hectic time with many clients coming in to ride, buy horses, and train. I could have never made it through without the help of Mary Mckeon, Haley Goodwill, and Di and Steve Toth.  It was a crazy time.  It was during my time in Aiken that a couple of clients proposed to help me get the trailer I really wanted by sponsoring it for me.  I truly could not believe it.  After running the proposal past a few trusted advisors (DAD!) I took them up on their offer.  I would never have dreamed of such an amazing offer, and I truly would not have been able to pull off the trailer without them.  It has opened many doors, and I still cannot believe how amazing it is; thank you from the bottom of my heart for making it happen.  They wish to remain anonymous, so names will not be mentioned.  But it taught me two important things. One, help can come from the places you would have never expected, and two, people really enjoy being "a part of something" and its important to never take that away from them.

I also had been rallying some people to syndicate a competition horse for the eventing world that would take me to the upper levels.  I had several people say they were interested, so we began looking for a suitable mount.  Horse after horse we looked, but never found the right match.  I did find a horse in Aiken that I loved represented by Charlotte Bayley, however, when I finally got everything together he had been sold the day before.  Enter Courtney Cooper from C Square farm.  Most of you know the story of Captain, so I will not reiterate it here, but again some amazing people stepped forward, and we purchased our upper level prospect from Ireland, and he arrived fittingly on my birthday.

Over the summer I had many people sponsor so many things.  I was sponsored to ride "Z" in the Jimmy Wofford Clinic at South Farm, which was so inspiring and a real gift.  We competed lots of horses in dressage and eventing, and I had a client sponsor Captain's registrations and several horse shows after his arrival~something that was truly amazing.  As I began competing him, his illness set in and our real journey began.  I will update you on that later.

The summer also brought some milestones for me as a coach when I had three horses qualify for USDF region finals (Buenos Noches 4th level owned by Angela Hambrick- Tsjesse fan it Beielan owned by Marian Shaughnessy- In a New York Minute owned by Angela Hambrick, and two students (Tiffany George-Kete and Jessica Hart) qualify for the AEC's, with one (Jessica) topping the national leader board for several months.  Tiffany did compete at the AEC's and was 4th going into showjumping but her horse lost his footing jumping a warm up jump and it was not to be.  Buenos Noches finished 7th at 4th level  and Tsjesse took 5th in the PSG at Regionals.  They also were accepted to compete at Dressage at Devon~ another event that I never could never have dreamed of.  It was my first CDI and the boys were marvelous.  Many thanks to their owners and a special thanks to our  County Saddlery rep Katie Gussenhoffen who kept checking on Goodman's saddle and for making my first trip to Devon memorable.  Lastly, a huge thank you to Charlotte Bayley Schindelholz for her beautiful coaching, exquisite preparation, and friendship throughout Devon and Regionals! We couldn't have done it without her!

There are so many "gifts" this year that I could probably type for hours, but the biggest for me is the people.  From my family's support and enthusiasm, to the inspiring words of friends and their gracious gifts, coworkers and peers who gave immense support, there are not enough thank yous to go around.  People constantly amaze me and it is the many people in my life who made this year special.  While on a personal level there has been sadness, loss, joy, and new life, I love my family and am so lucky to have them!

So,  that brings us to Captain's progress.  He was rechecked on Friday and his Herpes points were much quieter.  His symptoms are changing and becoming less severe. He has less body sensitivity and I have been able to actually do a few training rides on him. He seems brighter and has more energy.  His progress is painfully slow, but it is progress, and I am optimistic that we will keep moving forward.  I also need to make a point to thank a stalwart sponsor who has sponsored Captain's farrier work since his arrival, and continues to do so despite his current medical condition, as well as the generosity of several people in regards to his stall at  White North Stable.  This has been so important since we have not been able to syndicate him yet due to this problem, and bearing the expenses myself has been daunting.    It is inspiring that people continue to have faith in us despite this setback!

In the spirit of good riding I plan to "look up", "go forward", and stay balanced this year.  Each obstacle brings us a chance to jump instead of step to the other side, and I can't wait to see where this wild ride takes us next! Heels down, keep those eyes up and thank God for the gift of another year to honor his mysterious working in our lives!

Happy New Year!

Luck be a...

Its been an exciting year of amazing activity for me this year, taking me to places I never considered going, and of people making dreams come true.  I promise to do a year recap blog, but right now I wanted to share something close to my heart for now. 

As many of you know, I was extremely blessed to have some people come together and purchase me an upper level event horse prospect from Ireland earlier this year.  Clover Joe, or as we call him in the barn, "Captain", is the sweetest, most athletic, fun loving guy, and everything we hoped he would be.  I had the opportunity to compete him at a couple events and then, as some of you are already aware, a mysterious illness seemed to have beset him.

 At first we thought it was a sinus infection, and treated it as such.  When that didn't relieve his symptoms, we tried a myriad of other antibiotics, antihistamines, steroids, and therapies, with not much improvement.  We changed his feed.  We blacked out his window to see if it was photo sensitivity, and tried riding him in a variety of bit less bridles. This has probably been the most confounding, frustrating, heartbreaking thing to watch happening... seeing him so agitated and clearly not feeling well but not being able to help him much less diagnose the problem.  I  had people tell me that he was a "headshaker", that he had a training problem, and other assorted opinions, but in my gut I knew there had to be a reason and a way to treat the problem instead of just masking the symptoms.  I began to do research. and more research. and more research.

In my search for answers, I sought out friends and fellow trainers, peers and mentors for advice, and got some interesting information.  One particular friend (who is a veterinarian) even stopped out to watch me ride him, and did video on his own time to try and help figure something out.  Then came our biggest breakthrough.  A few weeks ago a friend of mine named Angel said I should contact Dr. David Miller and have him evaluate the horse and have him try acupuncture as it had greatly helped her horse.  I always say that people are put in our lives for a reason, and Angel is no different. I can't help but see the irony as she turned out to be a true "angel" in disguise for sending me on this path.  I decided to give Dr. Miller a try before going to Rood and Riddle to see if he had any idea of what could be happening with Captain.

Yesterday afternoon, Dr. Miller met Captain.  I told him the story of occurrences that began in August leading up to now, and he began his examination.  It was very apparent where Captain was telling him the pain and discomfort was, and Dr. Miller was actually able to show me blisters in his mouth.  We finally have a diagnosis, and I was so dumbstruck and relieved at the same time, that I actually just hugged him!  He believes Captain to have Immune Mediated Neuropathy Syndrome.  This is a condition that follows Herpes virus exposure or infection.  Captain's symptoms began on August 11th, 6 days after he had his first ever Rhino vaccine, which as you know is an EHV-1 virus. It causes inflammation of the nerve roots and peripheral nerves, and affects the respiratory tract mucous membranes disguising itself as sinusitis, blisters, as well as fatigue and hind end weakness. Captain illicited all these symptoms, some of which I didn't even connect such as his sudden cross cantering which I attributed to saddle fit.  All of the dots were FINALLY connecting.  Dr. Miller performed acupuncture, and treated Captain with some medication, and we have formulated a treatment plan.  This is a rare condition, and I want to stress it is not an EHV infection therefore not contagious.  It is an immune response to the exposure to the virus.

Many people told me I should not make Captain's story public for a variety of reasons, but I want to share this with you now because  if there is someone else out there who is experiencing the same frustration I have, maybe it can help.  I hope to chronicle our SUCCESSFUL therapy here, and give you all a chance to be on the journey with Captain and I.  While I thought our journey would be a much different one, I am optimistic and faithful that we will overcome this hurdle and continue on our path.  More than ever I am convinced that this is an amazing horse, as he tried every day to do what I asked when he was clearly suffering.  I can't wait to see what he can do when he is feeling 100%, and I can't thank him enough for being such a giving partner.

Thank you to all who have been so supportive, or helped me figure this out , and hopefully some great therapy, a few prayers, and a little luck o' the Irish will heal our own lucky clover quickly.

The Clinic with Boyd Martin

not sure why there is a huge blue line....

On October 8th and 9th, we were privileged to welcome Olympic rider and four star competitor Boyd Martin back to White North Stable and South Farm for our fourth consecutive year.  I have been lucky enough to have known Boyd and Silva for five years now, and while I constantly wish we could train with them on a more consistent basis, the clinics they do are a wonderful refreshment to our training system and in getting us to raise our bar higher!

Monday at White North was all about the finer points of stadium jumping, focusing on riding out of a rhythm, and maintaining adjustability and balance at all times.  We started with an excellent turning exercise with two verticals set next to each other on diagonals, and proceeded to a related distance in which you had to be able to get 5,6,and 7 strides depending on your canter.  We then had a treble and did some course work, again focusing on ridability through out.  The treat of the day was watching Cori Garcia, Kelly Sult, and our own Kate Shaughnessy jump around the 4' and 4'3 in preparation for Cori and Kelly to compete at Fair Hill International, and Kate to develop a greater partnership with her new jumper Ciro.

Tuesday at South Farm took us to cross country where Boyd focused on proper galloping position, rhythm, and accuracy.  (And for me, proper connection with my new mount!) It was a beautiful day and Sarah and Chris had mowed and set up several areas that were perfect for catching multiple jumps where auditors could watch and listen.  I had so much fun watching everyone as they progressed through their lessons...several of my students on new horses that we have bought together, and seeing them excel through the sessions.   On a personal level I was able to have an excellent lesson on Captain, where I conquered my fear of Weldon's walls, and also dropped our little five year old boy off the Prelim water.  I was thrilled that Boyd liked him so much, and he definitely got me thinking on the fast track, reminding me that the fastest way to progress is to be detailed and correct in our training of this youngster. 

On Monday night we hosted our first dinner at Sara's Place to benefit the American Horse Trial Foundation which helps riders like Boyd fund raise to compete at the top level.  While we didn't raise as much money as I had hoped, we did have a great time, and Boyd gave a wonderful talk about his career up to the Olympics, followed by some candid questions by the audience.  It was excellent to have such a diverse group of attendees, and I personally would like to thank all who came, as well as Sara Welsh, Mandy Williams, and Jami Lieberman for helping me with last minute details. 

Big thanks also to Sarah Cherry for providing Boyd's accommodation, as well as our entire team (Liz, Mandy, Jami, and the guys) who worked to prepare the farm and helped keep things organized and flowing throughout the clinic.

We hosted the most people from out of town that we ever have, and had the biggest number of auditors to date. It is such a special experience to have the opportunity to host someone of Boyd's caliber, and I cannot thank him enough for making time in his busy schedule to come to Ohio and share his expertise with us.  There are countless things to be learned in clinics and lessons with Boyd, as well as his straightforward perspective on making one's way through the equestrian industry.  We can learn so much just by watching and listening; being immersed in that level of instruction even for just two days is priceless.

Dressage at Devon

Buenos Noches owned by Angela Hambrick

October has been a marathon of fun events and competitions, and I decided the best thing to do would be to separate posts about each event.  So, grab a coffee, and enjoy the read!

Dressage at Devon was the first leg of our fantastic close to the show season, and I have to say it more than lived up to the hype!  I was so honored and humbled (but mostly freaked out!) to be in the warm up surrounded by people like Silva Martin, Cesar Parra, Lars Petersen, the Barteau's, Jackie Brooks, David Marcus, George Williams...the list goes on and on.  It was more than surreal, and also difficult to stay focused when half the people around you are riding legends.  Luckily, I had an outstanding support team with coach Charlotte Bayley-Schindelholz, groom Mary McKeon, and two fabulous owners, Marian Shaughnessy and Angela Hambrick to tell me stories that made me laugh, and keep the atmosphere from playing with my head. 

Goodman, aka Buenos Noches, kicked off our week under the lights in a fourth level test of choice in which he placed fifth out of eight!  It was so amazing to ride this spooky horse in the dark with shadows everywhere, and have him just do the job!  I was so thrilled with this little horse's performances...each day he was better and better, and stayed very confident (something we have worked very hard to achieve) in the ring.  We rode our best test on Sunday, and finished all the other days in the middle of a very competitive field of amazing horses.  We changed a couple things in the way we "bring him to the ring" and Charlotte got me viewing this horse from a different perspective, and it paid off.   I always think of this sweet horse as the little prince, but he came to the party in a big way, and told us that he is ready to be a grown up like all the other fancy horses.  Training him more like a "hot" horse, instead of a spooky distracted one, gave him a greater degree of fitness, and focus. I was so proud of how far he has come I thought my heart would explode, and I couldn't wait to call Angela each day and tell her what a superstar he was being.   I also saw how much more accurate and detailed I need to be in the tests holding my lines, and really developing movements ahead of time.  Watching so many riders be artists of this was hugely beneficial for me in recognizing where I need to take my own level of riding to be more competitive in the international classes.

Tsjesse and I competed in our first CDI (both his and mine), and it was such a fabulous learning experience, that I am still sorting out all the valuable information.  We did the jog on Thursday, and had fun getting all shiny and dressed up~a big thank you to my sister Mary who helped me find a great ensemble, and topped it off with a super cute hat that made the outfit!  Friday we competed in the Prix St. George and entered the Dixon Oval for the first time.  Tsjesse is usually a cool character, who comes to life in the ring like a peacock fluffing his feathers, but in this case, as soon as we entered the arena, I felt the breath get sucked out of him, and he was set back on his heels.  I have never had the occasion to have this particular horse feel nervous or actually scared which took me by complete surprise, and left me with a lot of riding to do in the ring.  We were able to get through the test, but had many mistakes, and a horse that never quite settled, even to the last halt where I could barely make him stand still.  It was very hard for me to understand that my stalwart partner had a case of nerves for the first time ever.  Its almost funny because this amazing horse has given ME the confidence to ride in the FEI, and been there for me when I have not been my best and greener than grass, and for the first time EVER he needed me.  I felt bad because I was unprepared for this to happen, and left the arena with a million things buzzing in my head.  Charlotte, ever the eloquent coach, smiled and said, "Well, he IS a horse."  She said alot of other things that helped hit home, but that one really made me stop and think.  We changed our preparation the next day for the I1, and I felt like I took a bit of a risk riding him early in the morning to school in the Dixon because after all he is a Friesian, and there is only so much in the tank.  It was definitely the right decision though, and this time when we went down the center line, I was ready.  I knew I had to "be there" for him, and I really felt that this time I executed with precision, letting him know I was right there with him every step of the way.  While we still had mistakes due to tension, we came out of the ring wiser and with a new found level in our partnership.   The best part though was even with the mistakes, he got three rounds of applause, making for a very special experience for Marian to see how much people appreciate her and her beautiful boy.

Thank you to everyone who made this amazing experience possible...owners, coaches, family (especially Mom and Dad who bought me a fabulous new short coat for early Xmas), coworkers, friends, and supporters.  Also, special thanks to Katie Gussenhoffen and  County Saddlery for sponsoring me and outfitting our saddles to keep the horses comfy. 

Lastly, and most importantly, thank you to the horses, for trying their best, sharing their special gifts, and teaching me something beautiful everyday.   

And to the Dixon Oval...we salute you, and will see you next year!

Tsjesse fan it Beielan owned by Marian Shaughnessy